It's all been too much

After the whole debacle on Tuesday when I got Home from work i got an new text.

"I've had another 2 attacks of bringing up blood clots, after the first one i just cleaned up and got back into bed and dealt with it.  When after two hours I still had a thumping headache and booming ears I finally caved in and spoke to the duty doc.  I wondered if it was perhaps coming from my sinuses as there was no sign of bleeding in my nose.  He thought that was the most likley possibility and that once I am over the op I should probably be referred to the ENT again.  I've just had another episode, not as much bleeding but otherwise same symptoms, pretty wiped out, so much for a relaxing day. Regarding other matters I don't think there is anything to be gained by us discussing our or other family problems further.  I would like to continue seeing and contacting you.  I love you very much. Twin and I, Dad and I and Big Sis and I have problems but we've talked enough about them.  I just want to concentrate on you when we communicate, although I can't promise not to ask after them occassionally.  Is this ok with you?"

My Response
"I am sorry but I really don't need this much emotional baggage.  This attention seeking nonsense is making me ill.  I'm not coping and i think it would be better not to see you any more.  Everytime I do I end up getting hurt by you"

She replied "So be it".  she tried to call me the next day but I blanked her and she didn't leave a message.  So i've gone no contact.  Why then do I feel angry at her for not trying to contact me.  How screwed up am I.