now we are not in contact and still it hurts

So the last contact I had with the mother was on 16th february at quarter to 5, 4 days after I broke contact.

Text read "Nanny asked me to pass on a message to you and the twin.  Thank you very much for my lovely birthday card. It is lovely. I plan to come To Edinburgh for easter provided your mother is cleared to drive by then.  I would like to see you both.  I don't understand what has happened between you and Mother but I have had no row with either of you. I have found it very upseting and therefore would feel it would be better if we completely avoided discussing the matter.  Mother will let you know when I am up. "

This was followed by "One more thing, nanny has made it clear she does not want to see your dad"

My nanny doesn't text so how much of this is what she said and how much is a guilt trip laid on by my mother.  And its working.  its now two weeks since I stopped talking to her and i'm a wreck.  Going to set up counselling through work and see doctor soon.  Who would have thought that this would be the thing to push me over the edge